5 Misconceptions About Love

My Boyfriend:
How long have I been with my boyfriend you ask?
I've been with him for a year and nine months and I've known him for three years.

A mature adult would probably say I'm just getting started. Teenagers, however, would say I've been with him for a really long time. There's a lot of misconceptions about love, too many to be exact. Just when do we know if we're in love exactly? I believe that if everyone could they would already be with their "chosen one", if they knew who it was.

Misconceptions:

#1: Love is being happy all the time.

Stop. Just stop right there. There is no way on Earth a person can be happy at all times... especially not with another certain someone standing right next to you. It's just twice as worse because it hurts even more when you're in love and something makes you mad about them. Trust me, there will be those times where you just want to slap your significant other because you just can't stand something they do. Guess what though? They most likely will hate something you do too! So it really works out in the end if you have patience for the other person. Patience is le key to everything.

#2: He/She will never leave you.

So you want to be with your significant other at all times? Not happening. He's going to have a job and she might have one as well. He's going to have things to do and she might have things to do as well. A 24/7 relationship just seems kind of harsh, it's not like you're going to be facetiming him from the restroom. Haha...creepy. I doubt anyone wants that kind of relationship and although I may be exaggerating even those couples who think they'll never be separated, think again! You never really know when something will come up that'll draw a line between you two. Don't worry though, if the love is real it won't be for good. A little break doesn't hurt anybody, right? And if it does, well it just wasn't love bro.

#3: Friends will love your happiness.

If you're one of the lucky ones where your friends would do anything to see you and your loved one together keep them! A best friend is the most precious relationship to have but it's not as breath-taking when they're not doing anything to support you. Many, and I mean MANY friends get jealous. Not the small little "ugh I hate when he touches you like that" kind of jealous. I mean the "I definitely saw him with that b***h the other day at the store when he told you he was with his friends" kind of friend. If you have that kind of friend, run! Unless you know them for being honest...if not, I wouldn't really even consider anything they say on the fact.

#4: Everything is not always Cinderella.

I don't really know why you'd want a love story like Cinderella but hey, if that's your thing go ahead. Well things won't always be good is basically what I'm trying to get at. You might not end up rich and have "horse mice" but there is a pretty big chance you can still be happy. Nothing will be perfect and that's what makes a relationship seem like a quest. A quest where you're trying to find what will make things right and what won't and if they're worth it or not.

#5: Your relationship will take time.

No you can't marry the guy you just met. Well, I consider it to be in a thinking manner that we all have which is unique that you decide for your future well being. One day relationship doesn't seem like a really smart one to me. As a good friend of mine said, " Patience is the key" to everything. There where always be that one pesky thing that you won't like about each other, but not just because of it should you give up. Tolerance will be needed to deal with " your other half." It's definitely not something you need to wait years for, in some cases it takes years to learn about each other, but it takes way longer to learn about each other than one day. Just make sure to keep that in mind.

I chose to do this article because, where is the love?

Now back to me.

Because apparently I can't stop talking about myself. I just wanted to state the fact that I've felt terrible for the past few days. I don't necessarily find my inner peace. I consider things a waste of time when indeed the time is being wasted. I'm weird but I want to accept myself and I find that really hard to do in a world that is always shaming others. People, not world, sorry world I know it's not your fault I feel terrible. If anything what has been depressing me more and more is not the fact that I'm growing, but I'm growing alone and quite distasteful. I know I have not been the best and I don't think my destiny is planning on doing so any time soon. The time will come where my sincerity will turn in apologies and my apologies will turn into forgiveness. That is what I am hoping on for now.

Drawing a character for Someone Else

There's a certain someone I know that is in love with a new character from the newest version to come out of Fire Emblem.

Aqua.
Yep, that's right, her name is Aqua.
And yes she is gorgeous.
And yes she has blue hair.
How much better could it get?

I don't know, you tell me?

Of course I couldn't help myself so I went ahead and started drawing. Let me just say that copying something exactly as it is just by looking at it is hard especially when doing it to a different scale. This is what I have so far!

Close enough?

Surprisingly though I haven't had time to draw! I know crazy considering the fact that I'm not going to school anymore. So many things have happened in just one week and it's crazy! First of all let me start by saying that if my school would have had my final transcript by the day they promised I would have been gone to Mexico and would have made my posts over there. They promised them on the 16th and they won't have mines until tomorrow June the 24th. Great just great. Also the orientation that is required for me as a freshman in college has not been payed for yet! Why? Because when I was going to pay for it yesterday the page was down! Not only that but I'm having relationship problems. How worse could everything get? Terrible luck I've had so far.

First of all, I'm leaving in a week! Yes, I'm leaving to Mexico to visit my grandmother and family over there! So I've been going out shopping a lot for the kittens I'm going to leave behind and the food I have to bring in the journey. Not only food of course, also clothes and the tickets needed to go!

Thing is, how will I stay in touch? So I've decided to make a blog post everyday starting today so people have something to see. If they see this. Time  to save up money and buy a camera though because something terrible happened. My IPod broke yesterday! The same one I used to take pictures and work on my blog. I'm so sad because I have no money and no job so I have no way to fix this whatsoever. Time to start applying not only to college but job sites as well, eh?

Hope everyone has been having fun lately!

Keeping up

I've been thinking about my blog all week. Seriously, and it's surprising that I didn't have the same urge I had to open my blog like I did all the time.

Am I getting detached?

I doubt it. I just feel like I don't want to annoy my readers and fill them with unneeded information, or babble on my life all the time. I mean, nobody likes that right? So I thought it was about time I made another post. I made this realization probably three days ago. Great. Seems like it's all going well.

Reason why I didn't make a post was because I had no ideas. NONE. I even went online and searched for some and did my research but they all seemed too advanced for me. How much of a loser can I be? So I decided to give myself some free time and if I ever did come up with something I would write it down. I now have what I will name "The Blog Book" which is basically a small notebook where I will write blog info and ideas.

Ooooh, interesting. (What a great name Maria)

For now I have decided to give myself a drawing challenge everyday that I hope to keep up with. My inspiration for today's drawing was the fact that I had no idea for my blog topic and the fact that I'm bad at side profile face drawing. Here's how it started.

Woo!! Ying Yang. 

Has anyone ever closed their eyes really tight to the point where you see little colorful figures moving with a black background? Yep, this is how I imagined it even though it's not as complex. That's why her eyes are closed and she's thinking. Probably not blog ideas but at least she's not stressing.

Not done and needs some work, but eh.

Here's to the lack of attention to my drawing practice and blog! Cheers!

Time to keep up again and improve.

Definitely.

Voila! The finished product!

Dress Cut Outs?

It has been a while hasn't it? I find apologizing unfitting when I've seen bloggers post only once like every week and honestly I feel like I need to be apologizing to myself. Yep, you heard that right, to myself.
Why?

Well, not only do I feel like I haven't accomplished anything, but I also feel like I could of done WAY better. If there's one thing I'm proud of is the fact that the reason I was so busy was because I've been tired of wearing some darn heels all day. I know, terrible excuse and many girls do it on the daily, but I don't. Reason for having to be dressed all fancy was to receive my Culinary Arts medal and my Top 25% of the class rope to wear at graduation.

I felt miserable at the same time though. I'm used to being at the top, I failed in a lot of stuff in my high school years that I hope I can fix in college. Even though to be honest half the people who were above me copy off my paper on the daily. Like, really? You ask me the dumbest questions and you don't know how to do anything but your cheating skills got you up there? Wow. You should be so proud.

Anyways... TO THE DIY!

I have this dress I got on sale at JcPenny's at around Christmas time that I have NEVER worn. Never. I thought that should change this summer so I decided to refashion my clothes and hopefully I can keep up and do one each week. This dress had cost me $6...seriously. My only problem was that it was so plain and the design was throughout the whole dress and I don't like that. I feel like one of those Christmas presents that have a little character in the same pose and background throughout the whole packaging. Ugh, I hate it.

My smile is more like trying not to laugh.

(still not used to taking pics for blog)

It's green by the way, just stating the fact that my lighting sucks. This dress would be so cute if it was fitted correctly and had a little break from the pattern. The neckline is pretty low and the pencil height of the dress just makes it obvious I'm not meant for long dresses. I love how the fabric feels so I decided to do cutouts to take away from the pattern and add a pop to it. It was my first time so bare with me! 

I thought a little bit of it had to be taking away so I went ahead and searched for inspiration in order to continue with this project. My inspiration was to make some cutouts along the bottom to show a little more leg, give it a sexier but not slutty look. ;) I believe cutouts can be classy too.

I started by cutting off triangles along side each other backwards to make an Aztec type figure. It took some time but it was worth it. 

Side note: It's frustrating to forget what side triangle is next.

My inspiration (that neckline though)

Cutting through! (Time consuming with errors!)

I loved how the bottom looked and I only ended up doing the front because I got lazy, oh and I don't like my butt to be uncovered so I left it alone at the back so my bum has more protection. *sigh* Problems of being self conscious. There's only one small problem...

Final product! (still simple though)

The dress is still pretty plain and calls too much attention to the pattern, what should I do? Tell me, oh wise and fellow human beings. Your help would benefit and help my creativity grow as fast as I wish my hair would grow! My idea is I want to take a section out of the neckline or waist area, nothing big but noticeable. Hope you enjoyed some of my creativity, I kind of just did this on a whim. Crazy right?

 I know I am.

Friendship Problem

*Sigh* I need advice. Some really good advice. I have no idea what to do anymore and like I've mentioned before I feel like I kill things off most of the time.

My childhood friend is still mad at me.

I'm honestly still mad at him. Everything is making me so frustrated. For example, I know that if I were to apologize he'd probably still hold a grudge and things would be awkward. I guess I should mention the whole story so ya'll won't be lost in reading this.

So here it is:

I have a two childhood friends (one female and one male), a boyfriend, and a few other friends I made in high school. We were always making plans together to go someplace or another. Well one day I decided I wanted to hang out with my friends but since I don't get money from anywhere I believed it to be nicer if it were someplace where we could cook the food and watch a movie. So I decided for that place to be at my boyfriend's house. The problem was that even though I asked him permission to bring friends over at his place he didn't like the idea of the number of friends that were going to end up going. Yep, he got upset with me. Naturally like any other girl trying to fix the problem, I canceled. I thought maybe we could just change the date and go somewhere else in order for me to afford to go somewhere else. So we did. We had a day planned for us to all spend time together. I was actually really excited because I never really had friends to go to places with so I made sure I did my homework the day before.
So I'm sitting here in my room, doing my homework, and reading the messages they were posting on our group chat.
I decided not to answer back because I knew that if I did I would end up getting distracted. Getting distracted while trying to do homework is so hard to me.
Well anyways, they're chatting and all of a sudden my female childhood friend sent a message that caught my attention. It said that I might not even go to the meet up because I was going to meet up with my boyfriend at his house to cook.
My male childhood friend instantly started with some crap like "Oh yeah, "cook" :|"
Only one friend jumped in to my rescue saying, "Well maybe it's just for their alone time, I don't think they'll be there the whole time."
To which my female friend answered, "...yeah." And my male childhood friend answered with, "Well we can go without them."
That's when things went downhill. I decided to not answer them although I was reading everything. I was so curious of what they would say next. And indeed they made plans without us. Like gee thanks for taking my invitation, throwing it in the trash, then leave me out of yours. So I ended up not going anywhere the next day but to my boyfriends house to have a LONG talk, he apologized and everything but seriously nothing clears up with an apology apparently. I started getting mad for sooo many reasons that I can say at any point to defend myself. Here's a list of why I was pissed:

1. My boyfriend didn't tell me he had told my friend about this. (Yes I did agree to go cook, we had a whole meal planned! But it surely didn't mean I wanted to be there the whole time. I actually wanted to spend time with my friends.)
2. They're intentions were totally wrong! I hate when people make assumptions. Like I already have people judging me, I don't think I need my friends judging me either.
3. My boyfriend never cleared it up.
4. I apologized to my male childhood friend if I offended him after I noticed he was mad and he told me it didn't matter and to forget about it. Right afterwards he went and got all mad at my female friend who honestly felt terrible afterwards. Like no, you don't tell me to forget about it and then go get mad at someone innocent. I'm sorry but the world doesn't revolve around you. So I completely ignored him after that.
5. Now I feel frustrated because I feel guilty as hell and my female friend is trying to fix things between him and me. Today she made a new group chat after he deleted us off of his and she added everyone in it again. Guess who was the first person to get out of it? Yep, it was him.

It's obvious things aren't going so good so far. The worst part is a lot of my friends don't like my male childhood friend because of this and the damage is done. Somehow I feel like I took part in this friendship breaking up.

I feel even lonelier without him though..

It's bad enough I already felt lonely.

By the way, if you ever have a problem I'm here to help! Don't be afraid to ask me for advice or intake in something.

Prom 2015!

Guess what guys? I graduate this year! I'm finally going to graduate from my high school at the age of 17. It's been a long time that I've had to wake up at 5:00 A.M everyday. I believe my school is the only one that makes the buses come pick us up at 6:10 A.M. and starts at 7:30 A.M everyday. 

Ain't nobody got time for that!

So I'm in my Senior year and of course at this point in your life most teenage girls are thinking about one thing and one thing only... and that's prom!

Well, I never wanted to go to my prom to be honest. I'm not a party girl as much say. The latest I've ever been out of home has been at around 6:00 p.m. I decided to have a reunion with friends and do something else! Well...most of my friends got mad at me and I didn't know what to do so they didn't end up going. I still feel miserable about it till today. Well this post was meant to be the day of prom which was on May 16, 2015, but I didn't get some pictures till today. And I mean come on, who would like this post without pictures?

So here's the first three!

I know I'm not the cutest thing, but I've realized I should stop hiding my smile because it made me even more self-conscience. I feel it's best to just smile even though it's not the cutest thing and I've always been bullied because of it. 

It's not like I could have avoided it anyways with him there next to me. /.\. It's corny but I can't help but smile around him and I love seeing that pearly white smile he has all the time. The way he looks so softly and innocently into my eyes makes me realize how lucky I am to be with him. Yes, my boyfriend was my #promdate. We had a great time taking thousands of pictures. Aren't we just like the weirdest couple? 

No we did not end up matching for the pics but that's not the important part. And for the jokes and so I won't be the only one looking stupid, he actually forgot to change his shoes because he locked himself out and his bro out of his bro's room. 

I guess he was nervous? Nah, I doubt it.

He says I'm short but he's pretty short for an 18 year old guy. By the way I am wearing high heels, they're just not that tall. His smile is the best, and I kind of look like the oddball but at least I made him feel some real weight on his shoulders. (eh you see what I did there? No? Okay.)

We had a water gun fight back at his friend's(his bro) house! It was so intense I got a blister on my hand, no joke at all. It was probably the funnest thing I had done in a long time and I wish to do so again but with water balloons. Wish me luck on that for Saturday!

Claymation Project

So I have art class and my last project of the year was to make a claymation.
It's basically an animation made out of a whole bunch of pictures you put together of clay moving around.

I ended up being in a group with three guys, you can already imagine what happens when you're the only girl. Yep, that's right you have to do most of the work. Not that they were bad group members but they talked most of the time and I can say that's the part I hated the most. GET TO WORK PEOPLE.! We ended up doing a Pokemon battle between Pikachu and Darumaka. (Don't ask me who Darumaka is because I don't know). It was actually really short and ended up being only 20 seconds long. Let me just say that I learned so much from doing this for the first time. It was terrible! I had to get all the pictures and edit some and then put them all together in to a movie with audio.

The hardest part is taking the pictures because the clay moves so much and the background we had was quite small. I hated doing this with the small clay figurines we had made. We made them so small so it was so hard to give them expressions and such. I learned to not make them as small if I ever want to do another one again. Which I probably will knowing myself.

As for the grade, I'm pretty sure we'll pass even though the video didn't end up so good itself. I made it but I feel it needed something more to it and there's not really much I can add to that when I don't know how to edit videos. I think I'll prefer working alone next time before I get blamed for something else I'm positive I stated.