Privileges

I know I haven't posted in a while.
To be honest I didn't want to anymore, well I did, but I felt like it was unnecessary.
I feel unnecessary.

I have a job now, I want to go to college and study and I just feel like I won't be able to anymore. I have an older brother. Everyone is so proud of him. He got a scholarship, I didn't. He has a car, I don't. My mom helped him pay many things, not me.

I don't want to feel selfish or jealous but I do. I feel like crap. It's like I only exist when they actually need me. "Oh? Big bro too tired to take you to the store? Let's tell Maria to take us." or " Big bro too tired to fix a light bulb? Let Maria do it." I know it might sound pitiful but it all builds up in me, for example, whenever I need something I have to fix it myself or they get irritated if I ask them for help. Why? Why do they get so mad at the simplest of things but I can't get mad with them.

I told them about my blogging work more than five times and every time they say it's something stupid. That I'm wasting my time because there's no way I'm going to make something out of this. To me it's something so special though. Knowing that someone can read this it makes me feel better. I have so many projects in mind and they don't realize that 90% of the time I don't do it because I'm helping them out.

Well I'm done ranting...I think. So far I have the worst luck ever. I bought myself a graphic tablet with my first paycheck because I knew it'd be a good investment. I would have more possibilities in enhancing my drawing skills and guess what happened? My computer broke down the day I received it so I can't even use it. It's just been sitting there in a corner of my room. *sigh* Now I have to pay to get my iPod fixed because without it I can't take pictures and I have to buy a whole new desktop computer because no one else is going to buy it for me. How in the world am I going to save up enough to go to college by January. Wish me luck, btw I have a nice post coming closer. I believe it'll be nice if I do it by this Sunday or Tuesday that is coming up.

To Make or Not to Make?

Guyyysssss!
I am back!

I know, I know. I basically disappeared for like an eternity. Well, to me it was an eternity not being here blogging about my usual curious self. There was nothing I missed more than my projects that I hope one day will get popular.

If anything, I started getting back on track with my drawings! I also got a job, my first and nerve-wrecking job, ahh how happy I will be to get my first paycheck tomorrow. My eyes are sparkling with delight (they sure weren't the first day of work though)!

Anyways, Mexico was fun somewhat. It was bothersome that we had to stay there longer than I expected and that there were a lot of fights involved but somehow we managed in the end.

I have a lot to do to work on this blog so far and I want to try having a DIY month, where I make a post everyday on a DIY project for a whole month. Problem is what month should I pick and can I really hold up to it? Or should I make a Pinterest week, where I make a Pinterest DIY project for a week? Basically they're the same thing, but there should be a schedule for both. At least that's what I believe. I'm just so excited to be back and finally get on track with my life. There's so much to do!

By the way I finished that quick sketch I made for my brother (I know, about time)! Here it goes:

That hair though ;)

Here's some pictures I took while travelling around Mexico!

Basilica de Guadalupe in Mexico City, Mexico

Basilica de Guadalupe, outside view.

The park in the back on the way up to the little church.